I love art. Which is strange, because as a child, right up to the age of 20, I had no interest in it at all. Paintings and sculpture seemed irrelevant and anyway, they all looked the same. Unless it was 20th century art, in which case it looked like my dog could’ve done better.
Since the age of 20, art has become one of the most important things in my life. Paintings particularly; sculpture grabs my attention less so, though I’m unable to explain why this.
I used to enjoy kids art shows on the telly, anything with Tony Hart and Rolf Harris (I’m struggling to get over the fact that Harris was, in real life, an evil creature), but it never inspired a wider love of the subject.
At the age of 18½ I visited Denmark as an exchange student. Everyone who’s done this kind of thing will know that the hosts always bust a gut to show their foreign guests what their city and country have to offer. My Danish hosts were no different.
It says a lot about me that I cringed when I was told we were going to see Roskilde Cathedral the Danish Royal Ballet and the Lousiana Museum of Modern Art (both in Copenhagen); these worthy attempts were so Obviously Boring.
I had no interest in the cathedral; none whatever. Me and my group were given a guided tour around the building. The guide was excellent but, I thought, did he have to point out every single minor point of interest. Just one interesting thing would do it.
He took us into a chapel with paintings of sea battles on the walls. The walls were sculpted in marble, there was a statue of someone and a portrait of Christ. All of which left me unmoved.
Until the guide told us the walls were an optical illusion. The picture frames weren’t sculpted in marble, they were all tromp l’oiel paintings. Then he added that the portrait of Christ only became properly visible when viewed through the legs of the statue.
When I took a closer look at the marble frames of each of the paintings, I could see that they were flat as a pancake, there was no sculpture, no marble. Everything had been painted. The grain of the stone, the shadows…make that the multiple lines of shadow…all of it was made to fool the eye.
And that portrait of Christ really was nearly impossible to see properly. It was mounted between two large windows. The light from the windows flooded the eye to the point where Christ was only a little face and not much more. But, we were told, if you stand behind the statue and look at Christ from between its legs, you see the founder of Christianity in all His glory. And it was true. The legs blocked out the light from the windows, making the portrait visible, making Christ himself visible.
From there on, I took in everything the guide said. Checked over everything he pointed out. Listened to everything he said with newly keen attention. But nothing resonated quite as much as that chapel.
Roskilde Cathedral in Denmark is a beautiful, fascinating building and well worth a visit.
Days later I was at the Louisiana Museum of Modern Art. It has nothing to do with the United States, but is instead named after the wife of the founder.
The very first picture the guide took us to had a Christian looking cross in black against a white background. The block in the top left corner was completely filled with orange paint. What was it? asked the guide. None of us could work it out. Not one.
It was, she said, a painting of a tree, with the sun in the background, totally stripped down to its barest essentials. All you needed to see, the artist was implying, is the shape of the tree and the colour of the sun.
WOW!!!! Now she had my attention. The problem was that I didn’t like the paintings that followed, couldn’t see their reasoning and so my interest waned and died. But I never forgot that one painting. I was knocked over by it.
Two years later, I had started my Communications Studies degree and was beginning to feel that I had found one of my passions, Cultural Studies (I know, but someone has to like it). Among the books on my reading list was Ernst Gombrich’s The Art of Illusion. Now I know what I’m about to describe sounds cheesy and silly, but here it goes.
I had got the book from the faculty library and started flicking through it, scanning the pages and looking at the pictures (HA! there it is!) when I spotted a black and white reproduction of one of Claude Monet’s views of Rouen Cathedral.
I was transfixed. I was stunned. I couldn’t take my eyes from it. I felt a hatch into a completely different world suddenly opening up and I knew I had to follow; that my life would never, ever, be the same again. Black and white for crying out loud.
Suddenly I went mad about paintings. Not ‘merely’ the Impressionists, but everyone-ists. Old Masters, Modernists, you name it, I wanted to see it. Within weeks I was debating the finer points of Cubism, comparing it to the work of the French Realists, contrasting a Picasso ‘Table Lamp and Cup’ to a Fantin-Latour ‘Still Life with Fruit’.
What one of my classmates had dismissed as ‘blob paintings’ suddenly made sense to me. Or if it didn’t, I could have fun wracking my brain, reading up on it to work out what the artist had been trying to say and do.
I have never lost that awe, wonder, excitement of those early days when I discovered Art and Painting.
In the following years I saw each of the Fine Art Department Final Year Shows, gushing profusely over the ideas and work of the students involved.
Going down Memory Lane is not something I like to do: never go back to your past, it’s never as good the second time round. That was my mum’s advice the year after I’d been to Denmark because I wanted to return. Like most mums, she was dead right.
However, there are three things I would love to do again. The Louisiana Museum of Modern Art would be worth a rematch because I barely understood what I was seeing. I was incapable of making a judgement, except for that spectacular first painting, what I now know was a Mondrian.
Roskilde Cathedral too, deserves a second look. Not simply to see that chapel, remember its name and take in the effect of something I can now better understand. But to take in the whole building that I couldn’t appreciate when I first saw it.
Finally, I would revisit the Danish Royal Ballet. Like many of my compatriots in that week, I was horrified to be told we would be seeing a performance of Romeo and Juliet. A…a…ballet!!! Booooorrrrrinnnng!!!!!
I was the only one of them to stay after the interval. Watching the dancers, how they moved in flawless keeping to that music; their athleticism, the beauty of the music and choreography, how the two blended into one sinuous vision…I was moved like never before and barely since.